Millpond Ink Musing
Me? I Prefer to be Oblivious to Myself
Last night… well, actually early this morning, I had another confab with Father. During our internal discussion, I faced an impasse. I realized emotionally… experientially… spiritually… there was only so far that I could go in my walk with him before I was conscious of the ‘fruit of his presence.’ When I noticed ‘the fruit’, I then wanted to take some credit, and there was the impasse… wanting to take credit when I knew there is nothing I can do apart from his grace that has any merit whatsoever in eternity.
I love God for revealing that impasse to me. It gives me hope. Hope that I can live a little longer tomorrow… walking in his Spirit… doing what he works in me his pleasure to do… without me thinking about anything other than doing his will (without regard to earthly return on investment.) To me? Christian living and sanctification is all about a state of ‘being’ and seeing (not seeing?) more and more of Christ in me as a result of ‘that state’… well, rather, I pray those around me see more of him. Me? I prefer to become increasingly oblivious to myself.
December 2022
